Mind please work!
I need to either write or sleep. I should do both. I feel like a failure because I haven't done either yet. I s'pose I'll just write my paper tomorrow.
My brain just won't set down the facts right now.
So I think I'll go to sleep and just get up at 6am to write. Hmm.
I'm momentarily feeling very, very homesick. But when I return, I know things won't be the same. I'll probably blog on this later when I have time.
Yet, at the same time, I don't want this semester to end. I don't want to leave this community - this learning.
Really, it's me who will have changed when I go home. I don't know if Nova will fit into Sarah's life. She's a different girl. She used to be Sarah, and she cares about much of what Sarah cared about, but she's not the same Sarah she used to be.
I have no idea where the next few years will take me. I have no clue how God will change me. I confess I'm a tad bit frightened - frightened not because I am afraid for my welfare, but because I can't see ahead. But I know that God won't let me go. I haven't the slightest idea of what is to come, but His Name will still be on me nonetheless and He is Truth, even when I can't see it clearly.
Anyway. Order for the evening: Shower, Pray, Sleep.