Wednesday, February 27, 2008

My Own Reason or Strength!

If I cannot by my own reason or strength believe in Jesus Christ my Lord or come to him, then how DARE I imagine that I can convince others to believe by my own reason or strength?

No wonder my friends have been puzzled! I have truly contradicted myself.

From now on, no more arguements! Unless of course, they are not self provoked. Truthquestioner needs to learn more humility. Today's lesson has put a few stripes on the back of the proud ego, but that pride has not yet been crushed. It still yearns to flaunt itself, to corrupt my confession of faith, to haughtily force God's Word upon others as if that were how God really works!

I don't really know what to do now. I can't take all the words of month's worth of conversation back into my mouth.
But I do know that Christ always made a good Confession and all that He has is mine. Even though my attitude of the past months stank, "there is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus."
I pray that God will use my poor confession for his purpose even though it is riddled with my own sin.

Relying on my own reason and strength is MISERABLE! But how do I avoid this trap?


Anan said...

I pray that none of your friendships were hurt by this... Oh Sarah.

TruthQuestioner said...

Probably not. My friends are more faithful to me than I am to them. Mostly just my pride is hurt. But most of all, my little ego was scared silly for a day and my prideful heart was torn.
All in all, that was a good thing because it returned me to look outside of me for all good things.

It's interesting though. When people hurt me, I get angry. When I hurt my friends, I feel wounded and ripped apart.

Why is that?